Welcome in the Calm

Medieval Templar Rosary, I would like to make one of these.

It is raining out today and I am sitting here with James beside me and I feel very calm. My appointment for the HSG is Friday and I know that while it may not turn out ok that things WILL work out for us. I KNOW this in my heart and soul. And while our family may not be created in the way that I always assumed it would be I know that we will have a family some day.

Today I am ok with waiting. I am ok if it takes another 3 years. Our child/ren are out there and they will come to us.

I wish that I can capture these feelings, this calm somehow and keep it with me. So that on days when the despair creeps in I can hold today close to me and know that things will work out.

As Bijougirl has done I have begun to feel the need to start getting together baby supplies. I already have a few cloth diapers but I would like to start looking at getting carriers/slings when they go on sale and getting more cloth diapers.

I am scared of this as well of course, nothing is worse than having baby stuff in your home when there is no baby to go with it. But I feel the need to be doing something to prepare.

Maybe I will wait until my follow-up appointment in September.

In the mean time if you have any tips on finding great deals let me know!!